Min Haisu Lam Yahtasib

Bismillah.

Aku pernah terbaca komentar ikhwah atau akhowat entah bila atau di mana, aku tidak ingat. Komentar yang bunyinya lebih kurang begini.

.."rindu hingga mengalir air mata apabila teringat ikhwah/akhowat..".."indahnya ukhuwah.."

Kadang2 aku tersengih. Alahai dramatic nye.. Ye ye je nangis rindu etc..

WaAllahi, dan aku skrg dalam kegelapan malam dan  dalam kegelapan bas ini, sedang mengalir air mata menulis tulisan ini.

Mengapa? Aku pun tak tahu. Tp hati terasa sesuatu. Hangat, spt diguris atau entahapa..kerana mengenangkan mereka ini - ikhwah.

Aduhai Rabb, betapa mereka sgt berlaku baik kepada aku. Betapa mereka sgt menyantuni aku. waAllahi, aku tidak segan dan kisah sekiranya ada org geli dengan testimoni aku skrg - bahawa aku rindu kamu ikhwah, aku syg kamu ikhwah.Uhibbukum fillah!

Dan Allah itu sgt penyantun. Al-Haliim. Dia menghadiahkan mau’izah (pengajaran) dari arah yg tiada sangka. Spt mana sentiasa Dia menhadiahkan makhraj (jalan keluar) dariarah yg tidak disangka.

Pada pendapatku yg daif ini, betapa mereka mengesani hatiku ini, kerana mereka benar2 ikhlas dalam itsar. Tiada alasan lain atas santunan mereka melainkan ukhuwah di atasDnT.

Di dalam kesejukan, kegelapan dan goncangan bas ini dek jalan yg entah kurun keberapa kali terakhir diturap ini, aku semakin yakin (inshaAllah). Yakin dgn wasilah tarbiah. Jaulah, daurah, usrah, qiam etc. Wasilah yg perlukan kita utk menggadaikan keselesaan kita. Samada wang, masa, emosi, atau keselesaan physical itu sendiri. Dengan gadaian ini, Allah akan hadiahkan kpd kita mauizah (pengajaran), iman(keyakinan), dan hamasah (semangat). Inilah dia tarbiyah.

Dan pastinya, hadiah tidak ternilai ini tidak akan dihadiahkan tanpa rabbani, mujahadah(usaha kesungguhan) dan ikhlas (kerana Dia).

Dalam keadaan saum, post-riadah berat, tidak sanggup pasrah dgn traffic jam dan berlarientah berapa kilometer mengejar ke stesen bas utk ke destinasi itu.

Padanlah Allah mentarbiyah sahabat dgn seksaan, ghazwah, sariyyah utk memasakkaniman ke hati mereka. Kerana harga iman ini tidak layak bg mereka yg sandar dansenyum dalam keselesaan.

Menangnya perang demi perang walaupun ramadhan kerana rabbani yg tertanam dalamdiri mereka. Betapa saum itu bukan melemahkan..bahkan menjernihkan hati (niat) danakal (judgement @ keputusan)..

Begitulah tarbiyah. Pupuklah rabbani, mujahadah dan ikhlas. Allah akan balas dgn iman,hamasah dan pemahaman. Jgn lupa tawakkal..

Aku tuliskan ini untuk kamu, kerana aku ingin menyatakan rinduku kepada kamu semua.Dan aku ingin berkongsi nikmat pemahaman ini dengan kamu. Semoga Allah redhadengan kita semua.

Allahu ghoyatuna

-dalam bas, ke arah utara, 2203hrs, 11 mac 2012

age..time.. chance.. decision.. action..

bismillah

i remembered the words of Lady Eowyn when Aragorn asked her what does she fear.. and she answered..:

"A cage.. to stay behind bars until use and old age accept them..


And all chance of valor has gone beyond recall and desire.."

chance of valor.. chance of contribution..

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and yes.. Gandalf's words to Frodo in the mines of Moria when he (Frodo) regret the ring had come to him

" so do all who live to see such times, but that is not for them to decide... 

all we have to decide is what to do with time that is given to us.."


time.. age.. what to do with it..


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and theres the peribahasa arab..


"..in lam tuzid syai'an aladdunya, fakunta anta zaaidan aladdunya

(jika kamu tidak menambah sesuatu kepada dunia, maka kamu adalah lebihan dunia).."

i don't want to be 'lebihan'..

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and also..

"innal insaana lafi khusr.. illa.. (sesungguhnya manusia itu sangat-sangat dalam kerugian.. kecuali).."

whoa.. in a state of kerugian..?? noo.....

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so... what conclusion should be made here..? heheh

p/s: Nasi Kerabu was great!

we sit together, we will fly together

bismillah

i have come to an understanding

actually it is a simple fact. very known of. frequently spoken of.

frustation is when u keep on expecting to have or gain what you want. what u wud claim is your rite.

forgetting that what u have in presence is a present

do dream

do hope

do fight for something

but don't look up and look front without realizing, without squinting at least at ur side, at those besides you, at those of u have with you

after all, they are with you

they are with you

they are with you

live up to them as well. do not just to live up for things that u desire, for things that u dream of.

live up to them, to those with you, to those around you

if u frown because u dont get what u want, at least those around u can give u laugh,

a smile

or a smirk by the least

they say ukhwah fuels us in this road..

live up for those with you, eventually they will bring u closer to your goal inshaAllah

p/s: i am quacking and so only ducks can understand me =)

lay back

sometimes he just feel so tired

his mind and his heart are drought

when answers he knew did not give effect as he himself prescribe them to him

resorting to keep silent, fearing words would trouble others

resorting not to whine and as if everything is fine

he wishes to have a long peaceful sleep to forget everything

yet he would not attempt so because he knew he would wake up anyways

wa laa tamnun tastaktsir, wa laa tamun tastaktsir, wa laa tamnun tastaktsir he said to himself

he does not understand, what answer is he waiting for actually

he wonders if his heart ever smile

he knows his face does, though transient, fake maybe

he is being sellfish perhaps, what does he demand anyways

and so people make distance, or may be he makes distance

and thus the drought continues

wa alwajibu aktsaru minal awqat

does he needs too lighten up, is he doing too hard on himself?

wa hasbunallahu wa nikmal wakiil

wa hubbahu ahabbu ilaihu

conflicts of ideals

guess he needs more mujahadah, and he needs to redefine, what does tajarrud means

So simple, so true

Bismillah

I find it very true.

Yet I do not resort to it as often as I can, or as intense as I can. Mankind.. sure is a forgetful creation.

It is so simple, it is so known, it is so obvious, and it is so TRUE.

I cannot imagine how such a simple fact do not linger in my heart and mind. I feel so disgusted.

Astaghfirullah, astaghfirullah, astaghfirullah
Astaghfirullah, astaghfirullah, astaghfirullah

Oh God, let me not forget my promise

Verily, in the remembrance of Allah does heart find tranquil
Verily, in the remembrance of Allah does heart find peace
Verily, in the remembrance of Allah does heart find reassurance

HasbiyaAllah, Tawakkaltu alaAllah

Inni as'aluka hubbak
wa hubba man yuhibbuk
wa 'amal allazi yuballighuni hubbak
Allahumma aj'al hubbak ahabba ilayya min kulli syai'in

Things that..

Bismillah

Are there things that..:

1) You want to be, and that is what you are..

2) You want to be, and yet still you are not..

3) You don't want to be, and luckily you are not (yet..naudzubillah)..

4) You don't want to be, and unfortunately you have turned out to be so..

5) You want to be, and you have been, and you still are..

6) You want to be, and you have been, and now you are not..

7) You don't want to be, you have been such, and luckily now you are not..

8) You don't want to be, you have been such, and still you are..

Muhasabah, muhasabah, muhasabah

Is there dynamic, or there is not..

If it is there, is it towards better, or towards worser..

Muhasabah, muhasabah, muhasabah..

Supossedly, you keep walking, and so you walk. And that is how it should be

Mind your direction of course..

and keep an eye on the progression.

Happy living

... di mana aku telah mengecapi nikmat yang tidak pernah aku kecapi sepanjang hidupku, iaitu nikmat yang meluhur, memberkati dan membersihkan USIAku..

07 JAN 2011
Nizhny Novgorod

Don't be fooled

Selagi belum mencapai matlamat, the journey is a climb. It will not be a plain, even road.

Therefore do not be fooled by the sensation of ease as the climb became of less struggle than the usual previous hard climb.

Just because now it seems as accelerating, it does not mean that the terrain is already flat.

Therefore do not lower the velocity. Do maintain the acceleration. Increase it is better.

Look up. Its still a long way up. And it is a bumpy slope.


Azli
2151 hours
07/07/2010
Nizhny