Tuesday, December 30, 2008


Ya Allah..aku menazarkan diriku untuk Kau…

Kerana mati itu pasti..

Alam kubur itu pasti..

Kiamat itu pasti...

Padang mahsyar itu pasti..

Hisab itu pasti..

Sirat itu pasti..

Kerna syurga itu pasti..

Kerana neraka itu pasti...

Tiada langsung keraguan dengan itu semua..

Demi Kau Ya Allah, yang nyawa aku berada dalam kekuasaanNya..

Demi Kau Ya Allah, yang seluruh pergerakan alam ini berada dalam penjagaanNya..

Demi Kau Ya Allah, yang menghidupkan yang mematikan..

Yang menciptakan dan yang memusnahkan..

Yang memberi rezeki dan yang menahannya..

Demi kekuasaan Kau ya Allah…kesemua itu adalah pasti..

Maka apa yang menangguh-nangguhkan aku sekarang..?

Maka kenapa aku masih melambat-lambatkan langkah..?

Maka kenapa aku masih malas-malas..?

Maka kenapa aku masih tidak bersungguh-sungguh..?

Maka kenapa aku masih tidak mahu menazarkan diri aku untuk Kau..?

Aku ini sedang hidup di dunia ini..sedangkan dunia ini sementara..dan aku pasti akan mati..

Aku ini pasti akan disoal di dalam kubur nanti..

Aku ini pasti akan dibangkitkan semula dari kuburku nanti..

Aku ini pasti akan berada di padang mahsyar..

Aku ini pasti aku menunggu waktu hisabku..

Aku ini pasti akan dihisab Engkau..

Aku pasti akan besemuka dengan Titian Sirat..

Maka..apa lagi yang menangguh-nangguhkan aku untuk menazarkan diri aku untuk Engkau..?

Kenapa aku masih menunggu untuk bulat-bulat setia kepadaMu..?

Andai aku menzarkan diriku kepada Engkau..

Kemudian aku tidak mampu..maka aku memohon kepada Engkau untuk berikan aku kekuatan..

Kemudian aku malas..maka aku memohon kepadaMu untuk memberi aku kudrat, keinginan dan keazaman..

Kemudian aku lupa..maka Ya Alah, ingatkanlah aku..janganlah aku menjadi orang yg mendustai diri sendiri..

Aku yakin..Engkau Maha Mendengar..Maha Mengetahui isi hati..Dan Engkau pasti tahu pada saat ini aku tidak berdusta..

Maka jika selepas ini jika aku lupa..maka aku memohon kepadaMu supaya betulkan aku kembali..supaya aku tidak mendustai diri aku ketika ini..

Ya Rabb, aku yakin..syurgaMu bukan untuk orang yang biasa..

Bukan untuk mereka yang tiada mahu bersusah dan berusaha..

Ia hanya untuk mereka yang luar biasa..

Dan..kalau bukan syurga pastilah tempat yang menyeksakan itu..

Apa lagi kalau bukan neraka jika syurga tidak layak untukKu..

Maka pada akal waras ku..pada fikiranku yang masih normal ini..pasti hanyalah syurga yang ku pilih.

Syurgalah yang SEPATUTNYA aku pilih..

Maka apa lagi alasan untuk aku tidak ingin menazarkan diriku..?

Aku telah mengetahui bahawa Engkaulah yang mencipta aku..

Engkaulah yang memberi aku kehidupan..

Engkaulah yang mengizinkan aku mendengar, melihat..

Engkaulah yang memberi aku hati dan akal..

Engkaulah yang mengajarkan aku apa yang aku tidak tahu..sehingga aku berada di sini untuk belajar..

Engkaulah yang memberi aku rezeki..untuk aku teruskan kehidupanku..

Ya Allah, Rabbku..sememangnya diri aku ini adalah dari Engkau..

Sememangnya Engkau memiliki diri aku ini..dan I am at Your mercy..

Jadi..by default..aku memang milikmu..dan aku pasti akan kembali kepadaMu..

Bodohnya aku kalau tidak aku mengakui hakikat ini..

Maka Ya Allah..janganlah aku mendustai diri aku ini..

Lindungilah aku..berilah aku kekuatan..berilah aku kesungguhan..berilah aku teman di sampingku..

Janganlah kau palingkan aku..janganlah kau jadikan aku ini orang yang mendustai kata-kata diriku ini kelak..

Aku memohon padaMu..aku merayu..

Ya Allah..aku ingin menazarkan diriku untuk Kau..

"Sesungguhnya Allah membeli dari orang-orang mukmin, baik diri maupun harta mereka dengan memberikan syurga untuk mereka. Mereka berperang di jalan Allah; sehingga mereka membunuh atau terbunuh, (sebagai) janji yang benar dari Allah di dalam Taurat, Injil dan Al-Quran. Dan siapakah yang lebih menepati janjinya selain Allah?...

...Maka bergembiralah dengan jual beli yang telah kamu lakukan itu, dan demikian itulah KEMENANGAN YANG AGUNG." [QS 9: 111]

30 Dis 2008 - 3 Muharam 1430

Sunday, December 7, 2008

it is how you see it first

The calender shows me that now is Disember. How obvious. But looking out at the window and you see that the roof of the opposite hostel is not laden with snow, I say it is a bit strange. It should be like -20 now in Nizhny. However, I can still go out without my winter jacket, because the temperature was like, +3, +4. Well not so much a mystery even to 7 year old kid if u ask him/her whats happening actually. He will answer..

"global warming.."

Yes..nature is changing. And not them alone, its dwellers as well.

I'm not so updated much with the global issues, but I'm sure that the whole world watched Barrack Obama becoming the president of USA. Is it such a big deal? I'm not sure. But they say, that America once before, was in a racial conflict between the blacks and whites. And now we can see they are accepting each other to the extent of having Obama as their president. Is this not a quantum change? I think it is.

A big change such as that does not happen merely in days or weeks or couple of years. A change of norm or culture of a population does not simply occur spontaneously. It is to be initiated by the functional unit, the acinus of the society, the human. And how and what exactly the change in human can cause a 180 degree upon himself and upon a society? I may not know in so much detail, but I know some of its mechanism.

"Verily, Allah will not change the (good) condition of a people as long as they do not change their state (of goodness) themselves" [13:11]

What does it means in tha state of themself? Is it behaviour? Or attitude? Or wealth? Looking back at the sirah of our beloved prophet, and having to read one particular book which I'm sure most of you have heard of, I would like to share some thought regarding this topic.

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Human behaviour & attitude are unconsciously governed by the way they see things, their perspective, they paradigm. Example, it is impossible an adult or maybe a teenager to act proactive, to be independent and to judge wisely and rationally if one still think he is still a kid. If he sees himself as a kid, he would'nt bother to think about getting organized. All will be done for him by his mother or nanny.

As explained concisely by Steven Covey in his utterly famous book, paradigm/the way we see things/our perspective - is like a map of a certain territory, or place. A real particular place or territory, is the reality where it is undoubtedly objective, whilst the map of it may or may not be correct. Paradigm is subjective, where different person may have different views on certain things. We can say that different people may have different map for one particular place. Using the abovementioned example, paradigm/map is the way the adult see himself as a kid, and the reality/territory is the fact that he is an adult.

Subjective as it may seem to be, it is fundamental that our maps are matched with reality. What would happen if we are heading to a certain location in a particular city, but yet, provided with a map of different city? If we cruise along by referring to that map, we would never reach the destination even if we give all our effort and being so positive. The reality simply does not fit!

A piece of history

Looking back at the Sirah of our beloved prophet, we can see that only about 300 men & women embraced Islam until the end of the 13 years period of Makkah, and rightly before their hijrah to Madinah. Those 300 men & women, was the backbone that thrust Islam to an exponential growth for like a 100 years (till the death of the last companion). Those people were taught by the prophet for that 13 years, and what had the prophet emphasized on during those years?

Mostly on the aqidah, the ideology, & the iman. They were given first, the real map of the world (who created it and what for) and the map of human: where & what they come from, their purpose of existence, and their definite destination. All of those facts which are seen so simple, but, if they are really understood correctly, it would change our lives. What do we see in history when the period of Madinah starts? Quantum change, growth and progress.

Is it so simple and easy? Just change the paradigm?


Like mentioned above, our paradigm will govern the way we act. It will change our attitude, our behaviour and so on. However, the transition to a new person from the previous is not that simple and easy. Previously, we had the habits that may be, contradict to those later attitudes and behaviour, and to leave the old habit and start a better one is one heck of a job to do. Paradigm will trigger us to change ourselves to the necessary habit, but still, if we are so reluctantly to give real effort, it wouldn’t work either. We need to know the why to do it, we need to know the how to do it, and ultimately, we need to have the want to do it.

"..Beware, in the body, there is a piece of flesh. If it is sound, the whole body is sound. And if it is corrupt, the whole body is corrupt. And behold, it is the heart.." [HR Bukhari & Muslim]

Gravity pull

It is sunnatullah, our we may say, law of nature that we will reap what we have sewn, we'll get the crops of what we have laboriously planted, that a 1000 steps must be started with the first one. Those are realities. Another example again taken from the book (that book Is really enlightening!!), change of habit is like a gravity pull acting on a rocket that is taking off to the space. The affect of gravity at first is very huge and it requires tons of force by burning those fuels to overcome the gravity. As it goes up slowly and slowly, eventually the effect of the gravity will be lessen. And that is how habit changing is! Ofcourse the start is difficult, but it'll get easier and smoother. inshaAllah

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"O you who believe! Enter Silm(Islam) perfectly, and follow not the footsteps of Shaytan (Satan). Verily, he is to you a plain enemy" [2: 208]

In this verse, Allah is telling us to enter, to practise, to give commitment into Islam, wholeheartedly. 100%. Without dividing into parts, into sects, into some subsection, which to be believed or/and practised some of them and to leave the other. And we can see that, Allah is comparing entering al-Silm (safety/safeness) aka Islam, with following the steps of Shaytan. It is to be understood this way: its either submit 100% into Islam OR following Shaytan's step.

These days I (and also you I suppose) heard from somewhere these days, Islam liberal & Islam conservative,Islam feminism..Islam this Islam that. I don’t know any of such labeling of Islam. If I am to be said ignorance (for not considering such labels of Islam), I'll be happy to be that kind/part of ignorant, because I believe, and I'm dead sure that Islam is Islam, without any parting, as revealed in the Quran & Sunnah and as carried by those companions and those who followed their footsteps.

But what that has to do with the main topic?

Islam had once achieved greatness, and it happened to be so, due to the greatness of the muslims who completely submitted to it. The height of Islam today depends on the commitment of its followers. The history proved that Islam was the best way of life (not just religion). Islam is great itself as it were descended from The Creator and the only deen that He approved.

Is Islam is so like that of TERRORISM like they said?

Is Islam is so like that of CONSERVATIVE like they said?

Is Islam is so HALTING the progress of economy like they said?

Is Islam is so like NARROW with ONLY prayers, fasting, hajj, and hijab like they said?

Is Islam is so ONLY that to be practised in the compound of the masjid like they said?

Is Islam is so CRUEL to SIMPLY cut one hands and to SIMPLY stone to death a person, violating human rights like they said?

Is Islam is so all about wearing that white cloth and wearing the white pill-box hat like we think?

Is Islam is so ONLY about the commitment of old people who are and done with their carriers, coming closer to death like we seen?

Is islam is so LAME, that it is not suitable for the young who seemed need to have much enjoying to do like we think?

Is it so? Is this how you view Islam, your paradigm towards Islam? Well I'm not buying it. And I hope you will not as well. And if you're not sure, I'll be glad to discuss about it =)


"This day, I have perfected your religion for you, completed My favor upon you, and have chosen for you Islam as your religion" [QS 5:3]

"What are they asking about. About the great news. About which they are in disagreement. Nay, they will come to know! Nay, again, they will come to know!" [QS 78:1-5]

7 Disember - 9 Zulhijah