age..time.. chance.. decision.. action..

bismillah

i remembered the words of Lady Eowyn when Aragorn asked her what does she fear.. and she answered..:

"A cage.. to stay behind bars until use and old age accept them..


And all chance of valor has gone beyond recall and desire.."

chance of valor.. chance of contribution..

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and yes.. Gandalf's words to Frodo in the mines of Moria when he (Frodo) regret the ring had come to him

" so do all who live to see such times, but that is not for them to decide... 

all we have to decide is what to do with time that is given to us.."


time.. age.. what to do with it..


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and theres the peribahasa arab..


"..in lam tuzid syai'an aladdunya, fakunta anta zaaidan aladdunya

(jika kamu tidak menambah sesuatu kepada dunia, maka kamu adalah lebihan dunia).."

i don't want to be 'lebihan'..

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and also..

"innal insaana lafi khusr.. illa.. (sesungguhnya manusia itu sangat-sangat dalam kerugian.. kecuali).."

whoa.. in a state of kerugian..?? noo.....

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so... what conclusion should be made here..? heheh

p/s: Nasi Kerabu was great!

we sit together, we will fly together

bismillah

i have come to an understanding

actually it is a simple fact. very known of. frequently spoken of.

frustation is when u keep on expecting to have or gain what you want. what u wud claim is your rite.

forgetting that what u have in presence is a present

do dream

do hope

do fight for something

but don't look up and look front without realizing, without squinting at least at ur side, at those besides you, at those of u have with you

after all, they are with you

they are with you

they are with you

live up to them as well. do not just to live up for things that u desire, for things that u dream of.

live up to them, to those with you, to those around you

if u frown because u dont get what u want, at least those around u can give u laugh,

a smile

or a smirk by the least

they say ukhwah fuels us in this road..

live up for those with you, eventually they will bring u closer to your goal inshaAllah

p/s: i am quacking and so only ducks can understand me =)

lay back

sometimes he just feel so tired

his mind and his heart are drought

when answers he knew did not give effect as he himself prescribe them to him

resorting to keep silent, fearing words would trouble others

resorting not to whine and as if everything is fine

he wishes to have a long peaceful sleep to forget everything

yet he would not attempt so because he knew he would wake up anyways

wa laa tamnun tastaktsir, wa laa tamun tastaktsir, wa laa tamnun tastaktsir he said to himself

he does not understand, what answer is he waiting for actually

he wonders if his heart ever smile

he knows his face does, though transient, fake maybe

he is being sellfish perhaps, what does he demand anyways

and so people make distance, or may be he makes distance

and thus the drought continues

wa alwajibu aktsaru minal awqat

does he needs too lighten up, is he doing too hard on himself?

wa hasbunallahu wa nikmal wakiil

wa hubbahu ahabbu ilaihu

conflicts of ideals

guess he needs more mujahadah, and he needs to redefine, what does tajarrud means

So simple, so true

Bismillah

I find it very true.

Yet I do not resort to it as often as I can, or as intense as I can. Mankind.. sure is a forgetful creation.

It is so simple, it is so known, it is so obvious, and it is so TRUE.

I cannot imagine how such a simple fact do not linger in my heart and mind. I feel so disgusted.

Astaghfirullah, astaghfirullah, astaghfirullah
Astaghfirullah, astaghfirullah, astaghfirullah

Oh God, let me not forget my promise

Verily, in the remembrance of Allah does heart find tranquil
Verily, in the remembrance of Allah does heart find peace
Verily, in the remembrance of Allah does heart find reassurance

HasbiyaAllah, Tawakkaltu alaAllah

Inni as'aluka hubbak
wa hubba man yuhibbuk
wa 'amal allazi yuballighuni hubbak
Allahumma aj'al hubbak ahabba ilayya min kulli syai'in

Things that..

Bismillah

Are there things that..:

1) You want to be, and that is what you are..

2) You want to be, and yet still you are not..

3) You don't want to be, and luckily you are not (yet..naudzubillah)..

4) You don't want to be, and unfortunately you have turned out to be so..

5) You want to be, and you have been, and you still are..

6) You want to be, and you have been, and now you are not..

7) You don't want to be, you have been such, and luckily now you are not..

8) You don't want to be, you have been such, and still you are..

Muhasabah, muhasabah, muhasabah

Is there dynamic, or there is not..

If it is there, is it towards better, or towards worser..

Muhasabah, muhasabah, muhasabah..

Supossedly, you keep walking, and so you walk. And that is how it should be

Mind your direction of course..

and keep an eye on the progression.

Happy living

... di mana aku telah mengecapi nikmat yang tidak pernah aku kecapi sepanjang hidupku, iaitu nikmat yang meluhur, memberkati dan membersihkan USIAku..

07 JAN 2011
Nizhny Novgorod